For reasons I'm bound to get into sooner or later, I am prone to nightmares. For the most part, they revolve around standard fare scenarios of falling, dying, etc. But lately, there have been some very interesting twists and apparent symbolism in these dreams. So much so that I almost welcome the unpleasantness and restless sleep because I am convinced that my subconscious mind is trying to tell me something that I just need to know.
When I think about this feeling -- this almost addiction to dreaming -- I can narrow it down to two possibilities: 1. It's based on the lazy hope that whatever answers I am seeking in my life are somehow already in my brain and just need to be set free, or 2. I am on such a quest for insight that I am manufacturing these dreams as a sort of puzzle to wrongly convince myself I might be on to something--a puzzle that mimics progress but is, ultimately, for entertainment purposes only.
Wow, that sounds crazy when put in black and white. Especially #2.
But maybe not. I remember an episode of Frasier where he (Frasier) was tormented by a recurring dream -- and his conclusion was something similar to the thought I am trying to express. Basically, it was the challenge of interpreting the dream that was causing the recurrence, not an unrealized subconscious message. I hate the term "mental masturbation," but that's pretty much it in a nutshell. Perhaps many a truth is revealed in sit-com...
Could it be the chase? Or is it more? Could it be that I am just making things more complicated (another thing I'm prone to)?